Just one of those days, I sit back and brood over. I mulled about how far I have reached and how much I have grown up. Witnessing from what’s happening around the world and hearing from other’s experiences, makes me open up my eyes and knock some sense. At times, I need this for me to realize and gives me a wakeup call.
I am content with what I have now. An understanding and patience husband, 4 adorable kids, a house and a car. A husband whom I can hold hands and lead me the way. A daughter, a son and twins who complete my womanhood. A simple house that gives us shelter and a normal car as a form of transport for the 6 of us are good enough. There are certain things in life that has to be realistic. Priorities have to be set in view of the importance in life. We both don’t earn big bucks and we are more than happy to support this family of ours. Sacrifices are made for the sake of comfort. It’s a matter of want versus need. I would love to have yearly holiday. I would love to grab designer bags. I would love to own tons of clothes. I would love to have a collection of shoes. With all that against the kids’educations, insurances, formula milk and food; guess which has the upper hand. The latter win of course!
I don't bring home big cheque. People told me to venture out and I could have earned more. I have received potential offer but I’m comfortable with what I’m doing now. I’m not sure if I have the capability to start all over again. I’m in the comfort zone and I like my current working environment. Maybe I’m just not brave enough to give it a shot. I reckon I will leave it to my partner to bring home the larger portion while I set my eyes on the kids. I used to go “wow!” when I saw parents with more than 3 kids and wondered how to do they managed. .Now I chuckle as here I am in the same boat. I have a cousin who has 5 kids, all with 2 years gap and took my hats off them. I really admire her ability to bring 5 fine kids and they are doing well now. I remembered that the previous owner of our house has 5 kids. At that time, I only had my first child and she asked if I could be at the same par as her. I gave her a flat answer of no and was confident of that. I admit that bringing them out on our own is quite a challenge but nothing compare to the feeling of accomplishing the task, knowing that we did on our own. Who would have thought a self-centered and indolent like me, is managing her house and 4 kids on her own. Who would have thought a man who on his 3 off days to be at home to handle his 4 kids on his own. Situations are not always smooth sailing and we just have to be positive. At the end of day, it’s us taking care of the children without engaging a domestic helper and of course with our supportive and accommodating folks who are taking care of them while we are away to work. It is physically and mentally challenge but we managed to pull through. We just need to look at the brighten side and the cooperation of husband and wife is indeed important.
Never do I regret of the changes in my life. Whatever decisions were made, be it right or wrong, treat it like an experience. We will try to adapt the changes and treat mistakes as a learning lesson. What’s past is the past, let’s look ahead and grace for the future.
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